This 15-piece collection comprises of 13 3d paintings and 2 larger 3d pieces. It was the first collection of paintings that I created and shows the early evolution of my work. The whole collection is based around mental illness, with each piece showing a different condition. But what they depict is up to you to decide.
Most of us have had some element of mental instability at some point in our lives. Often, these periods are just fleeting blips that will pass with help, but sometimes they can be much deeper. People can spend their entire lives in the depths of deep depressions, or so afraid to face the outside world.
In Out...:
Behind.
May 2019
3d Mixed media on MDF
29.8cm X 40.2cm
Breathlessness. Get me out!
I Am Not!:
Behind.
April 2019
3d Mixed media on MDF
31.2cm X 25.3cm
Am I clouded?
I Can't:
Behind.
May 2019
3d Mixed media on MDF
23.5cm X 29cm
Fear lives deep within, trapped in a prison of one’s own mind and limitations.
What Is Real, What Is Not:
Behind.
April 2019
3d Mixed media on MDF
40.2cm X 32cm
So many sounds.
I Know I Am:
Behind.
April 2019
3d Mixed media on MDF
48.5cm X 25.3cm
The eyes don't always show you how it is. What one person sees, others do not.
I Don't Think I Am...:
Behind.
May 2019
3d Mixed media on MDF
27.5cm X 40cm
I'm not! What is that in there?
Which:
Behind.
April 2019
3d Mixed media on canvas board
35.3cm X 45.6cm
I don't know anymore. Undeniably different.
Too Much...:
Behind.
May 2019
3d Mixed media on MDF
40cm X 40.4cm
Unable to stop. A pattern of no control, or too much?
Behind!:
Behind.
May 2019
3d Mixed media attached to MDF
There is always something below that persona.
What If...:
Behind.
April 2019
3d Mixed media on canvas board
55.5cm X 45.4cm
Something that goes through all of our minds, but for some it is more detrimental.
What's Wrong?:
Behind
July 2019
3d Mixed media attached to MDF
Nowhere left to run...The final piece in this collection.
I Did!:
Behind.
May 2019
3d Mixed media on MDF
22.8cm X 40.1cm
The mind is a cruel thing. Always unsure.
Never in one simple place. The turmoil of a forever loop.
Back And Forth:
Behind.
May 2019
3d Mixed media on MDF
25.3cm X 41cm
Look At Me...:
Behind.
May 2019
3d Mixed media on canvas board
35cm X 45.3cm
Where all eyes should be. Oblivious.
Dissociative:
Behind.
April 2019
3d Mixed media on MDF
46.4cm X 55.6cm
Lost in that fuzzy world of distance.
This is the first piece that I created in this 15-piece collection and it represents that of dissociation, a mental health condition that can come in many forms.
At the time of doing this piece, I had never suffered personally with this disorder, but in 2019, something happened in my life which triggered this condition. I have since done another piece to represent this from a personal level, which appears later in this book; So Far Far Away.
So Far Far Away...:
December 2019
3d Mixed media on MDF
40cm X 81cm
Although this piece isn't a part of this collection, I feel like it belongs here. As mentioned in this collection, I created this piece in December 2019, after I produced the "Behind" collection. One of the pieces in that collection depicted a condition known as a Dissociative disorder. At the time of creating that piece, I had no personal knowledge of it. In late 2019, something happened in my life which caused this disorder in me. I created this piece from the perspective of knowing how it feels, and I have suffered with this condition since.